This is my third year of teaching, and I am really
wondering if I am cut out for this.

It's just really frustrating because there are so many
variables that I have no control over and all of these
impact my job. I know that every job has things that are
out your control, but I think it is more so in teaching
than any other.

Like, I have no control over a child's homelife, but that
impacts their behavior and performance at school.

I have no control over what has happened in the hallway,
lunch room, prior classes, etc., but that influences the
rest of their day.

I have no control over the fact that some kids just don't
give a crap.

The things that are out of my hands not only influence the
day-to-day, but they also influence the year-end test,
which is probably going to become used even more in terms
of evaluating a teacher. At least it looks like that's the
direction it's heading in my district.

I have been in a different grade and/or subject each year I
have taught. So, it feels like I have had the never-ending
string of first years.

I worked really hard to get my degree, and my family
sacrificed greatly. I feel that I would be letting so many
people down if I decided this isn't for me.

I am also 9 weeks pregnant, so maybe it's hormones
talking. This makes it even harder to think about quitting
because I think it will be nice to have the same schedule
as our child.

Thanks for listening to my whine,
Ann

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