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Re: My stomach is going crazy
Posted by things are getting better.... slowly on 5/02/08
Well- I was sure to give her at least one compliment about her room or teaching style every day. I asked questions about her classroom, where she gets stuff, how she does stuff, everything, all the time. I always tried to pose things to flatter her, and honestly - until Tuesday - I thought her and I were good. Her and I are the same age. I am a career change, and also her first ST that she had ever had. She acutally said to me two weeks ago that she wishes she had never taken in a ST becuase she is not the "mentor" type, and she misses teaching - and would do anything that she could to get back into teaching her kids for the rest of the year - especially since in the fall she would not be able to teach them since she will be on maternity leave. I even went back and re-read two of my student teaching books from the college hoping that something would help - but she was not telling me when things would bug her. At the meeting with the principal and my school she said that she didnt like me asking questions so much becuase she felt it challenged her authority! I had no idea she felt this way - and I was only asking questions like, "have you seen situations like this?" or "do you think I am understanding this law right?" How should I know if no one ever tells me to change! She had mentioned to me that she felt I was being defensive when I was recieving feedback from her - and she gave me advice on how to change that (It is very different from corporate america apparently - and I was never explained this in college - and everyone that I went to school with are career changers.... so they all would NEED this information). But I worked my hardest to do better. She had only mentioned to me once after that, that she felt that I was still being defensive. And when she pointed it out I immediately apologized and reflected back... Now - I completely understand why the school let me go... After I had talked to a teacher that I trusted about what happened - and that never should have transpired. It is triangulation, and very unprofessional... but I almost feel like I was ambushed or set up. Why was she standing out there waiting for me? Why was she pushing for me for an answer? I am glad that we have this chat board because I needed to vent this in some forum. And I know I did something that was very wrong - but for those of you that are going to be a CT - PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE - let your student know when they are doing something wrong. Help them change and give them a chance. Tell them like it is - becuase mine didn't feel comfortable giving feedback - in the beginning or now - I appreciate that she was nice, but it wasn't what I needed. I am looking forward to my next student teaching experience - I am hoping that I am set up with a teacher that will give me straight forward feedback - and call me out when something isn't right. And I know that this isnt exactly the most realistic thing in education - you dont get to pick your principals and how they react to things... But still, don't make me think things are all lollypops and gumdrops, when in reality, I am about to be dumped from school.
Posts on this thread, including this one
- Not recommended for credential, 4/29/08, by Seven.
- Re: Not recommended for credential, 5/01/08, by Rodeo.
- Re: Not recommended for credential - by which college?, 5/01/08, by Let us know so that others can avoid the place!!! nfm.
- Re: My stomach is going crazy, 5/01/08, by life now on hold....
- Re: My stomach is going crazy, 5/02/08, by Rodeo.
- Re: My stomach is going crazy, 5/02/08, by things are getting better.... slowly.
- Re: To Rodeo, 5/02/08, by stomach lady.
- Re: My stomach is going crazy, 5/02/08, by I Hear Ya.
- Re: My stomach is going crazy, 5/02/08, by OldTeach.
- Re: Not recommended for credential, 5/02/08, by Seven.
- Re: Not recommended for credential, 5/02/08, by Rodeo to Seven and Stomach lady.
- Re: Thanks Rodeo!, 5/02/08, by Stomach Lady.
- Re: to stomack lady, 5/05/08, by been there.
- Re: Been There, 5/05/08, by Movin On... (previously stomach lady).
- Re: Not recommended for credential, 5/05/08, by Get some help!.
- Re: My stomach is going crazy, 5/05/08, by BC.
- Re: Not recommended for credential, 5/08/08, by not legal in any state...
- Re: My stomach is going crazy, 5/08/08, by still hate my CT.
- Re: Not recommended for credential, 5/08/08, by Seven.
- Re: My stomach is going crazy, 5/09/08, by Rodeo to Seven.
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