First off, I know this is probably the wrong forum to post
this message, but it didn't really seem to belong in any of
the forums-- I apologize.

I'll just jump right in. I'm a 22-year old college student,
and this summer I took an English class from a wonderful
professor who happens to be exactly 31 years my senior
(53). It was a small class, so I got many chances to
interact with "Professor G." I found him to be a very
intelligent, funny and interesting person, and a few weeks
into the semester, I realized I couldn't get him off my
mind. I went to many of his office hours under the guise
of "needing help" with assignments, never missed a single
lecture, stayed at class late to talk to him, etc.

Professor G always seemed to welcome my presence and enjoy
our conversations. He complimented my writing many times
during class and even called a couple of my poems and short
stories some of the best works he's ever received. (Yes, I
was floating on clouds after that! ) Two weeks ago, I was
talking to him during his office hours and he mentioned
that the other students really look up to me and think I'm
so smart and pretty. I know I shouldn't read anything into
that comment, but at the same time I couldn't help but
wonder if someone had actually told him that-- or if it was
his own guess..?

On Wednesday, our last day of class, Professor G gave me a
book that he had mentioned a couple times over the course
of the semester and urged me to read. I hadn't had time to
pick it up yet, and he knew this, and so he went out and
bought me a copy. I was so happy! Every nice gesture he has
made to me, every compliment he has paid.....I treasure
them and cling to them with my whole heart. --It's really
very pathetic.

Now-- Professor G has a wife and 2 sons, and I know he is
only interested me as an excellent student, nothing more. I
know this, yet I can't seem to stop thinking about
him.....it's been nearly three days since school let out,
yet his face is the last thing I picture before I fall
asleep, I find myself writing his name absentmindedly on
papers, I yearn to talk to him again. (By the way, this is
not a superficial attraction. Professor G is by no stretch
of imagination what one might label "hot." He resembles
Robin Williams much more than he does Richard Gere.)

It's gotten to the point where I'm scaring myself with
my "obsession" with this man. I know this crush is largely
based on fantasy, and I have absolutely no desire or
intention to break up his marriage-- not that I'd fool
myself into thinking that I even could in the first place!
I know a romantic relationship between us is wholly
impossible. I really can't figure out what's wrong with me.
Why have I become so impossibly drawn to this man? I'm sure
this crush is unhealthy and probably makes me out to be
some sort of insane little girl to those of you who're
reading this, and believe me, if I could kill these
feelings, I would.

I've written this embarrassing message because I need
help/advice....I'm driving myself crazy by moping around
thinking of Professor G every day. I go out and have fun
with my friends, but still, he's always there lurking in
the back of my mind. I must stop this! Please help, in any
way possible. I'm much too embarrassed to discuss this
issue with either family or friends.

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